The Lady Hooligan’s Page

I think I need to see someone about getting my temper checked.  I’m probably the most volatile person I know. And no, I can’t ascribe all of that to my brain injury. (I wish I could - would explain everything!)

Or maybe I simply need a long weekend away.  Change of scenery.

Heaven knows, this whole bond thing is getting to me big time.  I have found the documents that the bank needs - saying that my retail accounts have been paid up.  The bank records they can track on their own system!  It’s going to cost me too much to go to a bank and have them printed.  All this effort to prove that I can afford a measly R900,00 a month!

Hey, I’m a big fan of the National Credit Act - don’t misunderstand me there! It’s just a helluvalotta schlep to get a loan, now, even if one CAN afford the repayments.  And I would have thought that the best and quickest place to get a loan from, would be the bank that I’ve been with for quite a few years, now. (Won’t mention the bank!)  Instead, I get the run-around.

At the moment, I feel like taking my cash money, buying a plot somewhere and erecting a sink shack!  A lot less hassle!

When I left home with him this morning, I had already decided NOT to buy him the shoes he wanted.  After all, why should I use my money to buy him a pair of CAT shoes?  Can’t he be happy with a normal pair of sneakers, that he afforded himself?

I guess it would have been less of an issue had he simply said thanks for all the time, effort and money I spent in entertaining him as an uninvited guest for two nights.  And he got all huffy when I said he couldn’t smoke in my car any more.  PLUS his cigarette butts are still in the ashtray outside.  I agree with my mom on this one - as a smoker, the least courtesy he could have shown is to dispose of his own cigarette butts.

Good riddance of bad rubbish.  I do feel rather empty, but not because I had lost a friend by any means.  I feel angry at him for using me that way.  For once, trying not to turn the anger towards myself.  I don’t need that.

I just wish I could have had some support.  A hug would have been nice.